In my sleep he murdered me, Like he does each night, His words so powerful, his stare makes my bones ache..my body brake…i turn around and fade…Then i wake in a pool of blood, My bleeding heart is broken, Only last night we had spoken.. you words cut threw my veins, my heart racing, palms sweating, the room dark, my breathing heavy, i reach for my purse and pull out my blade..i sit and contemplate but the dark side wins, i scratch up my arm as i always do trying to avoid the other scars, The burning sensation kicks in i run to the toilet and press paper on the cuts, wrap them up and go back to sleep. Wake with that familular feeling…why..did…i…do…that… how will i explain? will the send me away again? i can’t go back to that white room, being left alone with my mind i will die with in those walls please please rip the memories out of my mind, i wish he never existed, i wish i’d never met him, he is poison, and now owns the key to my heart, i watched him swallow it one saturday night..I’m slowly dieng again and again please god help me!

Miss Lucy had some leeches
Her leeches liked to suck
And when they drank up all her blood
She didn’t give a
Funny when the doctors
Had locked her in her cell
Miss Lucy screamed all night that they
Should go to bloody
Hello to the surgeon
With scalpel old and blunt
He’ll tie you to the table
Then he’ll mutilate your
Come it’s nearly teatime
The lunatics arrive
The keepers bleed them all until
There’s no one left a
Lively little rodents
Are eaten up by cats
We’re subject to experiments
Like laboratory
Rats I’ve dropped a teacup
How easily they break
I’m on my hands and knees until
I pay for my mis-
Take off all your clothing
We’ve only just begun
We have no anesthesia
It’s eighteen forty
One thing we should tell you
Before you try again
The tests are all invented by
A lot of filthy
Mentally hysteric
She’s failed the exam
Don’t bother telling Lucy for
She doesn’t give a
Damn that nitrous oxide
For when you can’t escape
They say the surgeons oft commit
A murder or a
Razor blades are rusty
And not a lot of fun
So when they try to amputate
Your legs you’d better
Run and fetch the chemist
A patient’s feeling sad
She’s been in chains for ages
And she isn’t even
Madness is a nuisance
And no one is immune
Your sister, mum or daughter
May become a raving
Lunatics are dangerous
And doctors are obeyed
They also go together just
Like toast and marma-
Ladies are like children
With brains the size of squirrels
Let’s give a clitoridectomies
To all the little
Girls are helpless treasures
That daddies must protect
So lie upon the table
For the doctors to in-
speculums are super
And stirrups all the rage
So spread a lady’s legs and ** put her
Back in to her
Cage of naked crazies
The surgeon’s here to bleed
The doctors are all learned men
And some can even
Reading can be risky
For women on the verge
It only did us worlds of good
To poison, leech and
Purging is a penance
Phlebotomy’s a chore
No need to sterilize the tools
We never did be-
Fore the night is over
Before you go to bed
They’ll take a hammer and a nail
And jam it in your
Headstones in the courtyard
And statues in the park
Are not for the insane
Just leave them rotting in the
D A R K
dark
dark
dark
dark
dark

I will catch him, I promise I will and when I do I will make him completely black and blue, just like what he has done to you. I will then poor gasoline over him and watch it soak into his skin, I will drop a match, watch the flash, as he suddenly turns to ash. We will raise our glass, his time has past, you will now be free, and can start your new life with me. I will tale care of you, and I promise I will always be true, My little Mermaid, I am hopelessly in love with you.

Let’s run away for real this time no more dreams we are doing it we are getting out of here once and for all.

I start a new job next week. Back into the industry that is slowly devouring me. I can tell this like the rest will end badly, it’s just a matter of time.

I wish i could hold you now, the sky is black, the stars shine bright, the world is silent…silence..but there is no such thing…when will the screaming stop? was music invented to drown out the voices of others? or the voices within ourselves..Forever we will wonder…forever

I see your face in my mind, Your ocean blue eyes, pull me deep inside, your skin so soft and perfect, your lips so tender and sweet, just like a tasty candy treat, your everything so pure and golden, every inch of you draws me in, I didn’t know true love until i met you, now i feel it in my veins, like herion it gives me a sensation like no other…when i loose you is when the come down hits, i’ve been coming down for months now, i am begining to feel as though my love will never return.

She left that very day, she sadly walked away, i begged and begged her to stay….she then had flown away…In the darkness i wait and pray, That surely she’ll come back to me some day, and together forever we will lay, in our world beneath the suns ray..

That time we were driving, the wind was nice and cool, the sky was slowly begining to dull and fall into darkness, we sang along to our favourite songs, at the very tops of our lungs we cried out lyrics, smiles on our faces larger than life, our bodies warm with happiness, together we are invincible..no one can stop us..that beautiful afternoon still remains locked inside my mind, i look back into that memory and smile, i can’t wait to do it again, my beaten down red bomb car, but atleast it has good speakers!, i have so many more cd’s to share with you, so many more singers we can connect with…i have so much here waiting for you..a whole world of adventure, i’ll wait for you, right here i’ll sit and wait, like a puppy dog waiting for her owner to return home, the big sad droopy eyes, the sad soft lonley cries…but she knows shes coming…shes coming……shes coming….

I will drive my broken beaten up car that most likely wont make it out of perth, to come and find you and take you away from that place, that person, you don’t belong there, my heart is screaming for you i am melting away at the thought that i may not see you for even longer or ever again..i’d rather die than live this life away from the one person i love with my entire heart!!! i have the world to offer you i could give you anything you needed, write you letters daily, buy you roses weekely, take you all over the world, i’d work my ass off to pay for us to have the life we dream of, we can escape to the forrest, where the old victorian mansion is hidden within, surround by a fresh water lake…the garden beds full of roses, every color, the white rabbits roaming freely around the acres of land belonging to our mansion, we enter threw the giant front door and as it closes it makes a creaking sound, we walk threw the long hallway over the red velvet carpet up to the grand stair case were our new life awaits us. they will never hurt us again, we will never have to swallow another pill full of poison, we will never have to slave to those who don’t love us, we will never again be beaten by those who betray us, goodbye terrible world and welcome to our sweet secluded life, just us, our rabbits, our roses, butterflies, any animal we desire and in our world we will paint the skies rainbow colors, we will sing our hearts out to our favourite songs, we will dance in the rain not worrying about our beautiful dresses becoming drenched, our butler will have our wonderful dinners prepared each day, we will drink champange forever and pick fruit from the trees, we will answer to no one, only eachother, forever you and me.